quick update + VENT Today I'm either 7 or 8 days past ovulation (DPO), depending on which app I check out or which temp I entered for cycle day 17 (I took my temp twice that morning). Either way, the madness that has blissfully evaded me for most of this cycle has returned and I'm… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 9 – Day 24
...while I am on this journey to conceive at child at the "geriatric reproductive" age of 44, I am learning so much about the struggles that women and couples have with natural conception....
At no point along this journey has my faith in the Lord wavered. Any disappointment I've experienced has arisen from my impatience and unrealistic expectation that things would happen in my timing. God is so, so good. All the time.
Up until that point, I had not surrendered this process to God. I had prayed every day for His grace. I had prayed for an open womb, for a healthy body, for direction, for wisdom, for strength and for courage. I had prayed...
cycle day 22 - 8 dpo If there is ever a time where my talents, skills and abilities are entirely wasted and useless, it is during the week before my cycle is predicted to begin. During the final 7 days of the two week wait (TWW) to find out if we're pregnant, I tend to… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Two Week Wait Symptoms
TTC Cycle 8 - Day 8 Every two or three days I pray over my Bible and ask the Lord for a good Word to meditate on. I may pray for a specific Word for whatever I'm going through at that moment but, mostly, it's a general request for direction. After my prayer, I open… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Joyful Expectation
Day one. Numero uno. Here. we. go. again... Sigh. I recently listened to one of my favorite pastors preach that it is possible to have faith and be worried at the same time; that faith doesn't cancel out doubt. He quoted something like "faith doesn't mean the absence of doubt". I remember thinking, huh? Does… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Day 1
Cycle Day 25 of TTC Cycle 7 - 10 DPO Every time I sit down to write about how I'm feeling, I panic. I immediately feel flooded with emotions and the thoughts come fast, furiously piling on top of each other, fighting for dominance. I get overwhelmed with the idea of trying to "catch" a… Continue reading Focused on the wrong things.
On cycle day (CD) 9, I was at the gym doing a barbell bench press and, upon lowering the bar to my chest, I felt a twinge of pain shoot through my left breast. Wait. Huh? I completed the repetition and lowered the bar to my chest again, just to be sure of what I… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 14: Dropped the ball?!
According to the 3 apps I use to track my menstrual cycle, ovulation and symptoms throughout my cycle, my period should arrive somewhere between the 12th and the 14th. Before we started trying to conceive (TTC), my cycle was only 25-26 days long, at most. There was the rare 27 day cycle but anything beyond… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 26 – 10 DPO: Testing Early