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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 13 – Fourth Chemical Pregnancy

You would think that by now I'd be used to getting a positive pregnancy test, seeing minimal line progression on my subsequent (and ample) pregnancy tests and bleeding beginning withing 3-7 days of the first positive test. I should be used to it, right? It's been four times now. Four. I am 1 in 100… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 13 – Fourth Chemical Pregnancy

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 10 – Our Third Early Miscarriage

Test date: 12/25/2019 Finally! We had finally conceived. After 10 cycles, 2 miscarriages, countless pee sticks (ovulation test strips and pregnancy tests), consistent monitoring of every symptom, basal body temperature tracking at 5:50 am every morning and endless hours of praying, hoping and believing. We did it! I got my first positive home pregnancy test… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 10 – Our Third Early Miscarriage

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 9 – Day 24

quick update + VENT Today I'm either 7 or 8 days past ovulation (DPO), depending on which app I check out or which temp I entered for cycle day 17 (I took my temp twice that morning). Either way, the madness that has blissfully evaded me for most of this cycle has returned and I'm… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 9 – Day 24

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 9 – Day 15

...while I am on this journey to conceive at child at the "geriatric reproductive" age of 44, I am learning so much about the struggles that women and couples have with natural conception....

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 9 – Day 5

Up until that point, I had not surrendered this process to God. I had prayed every day for His grace. I had prayed for an open womb, for a healthy body, for direction, for wisdom, for strength and for courage. I had prayed...

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Two Week Wait Symptoms

cycle day 22 - 8 dpo If there is ever a time where my talents, skills and abilities are entirely wasted and useless, it is during the week before my cycle is predicted to begin. During the final 7 days of the two week wait (TWW) to find out if we're pregnant, I tend to… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Two Week Wait Symptoms

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Joyful Expectation

TTC Cycle 8 - Day 8 Every two or three days I pray over my Bible and ask the Lord for a good Word to meditate on. I may pray for a specific Word for whatever I'm going through at that moment but, mostly, it's a general request for direction. After my prayer, I open… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Joyful Expectation

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Day 1

Day one. Numero uno. Here. we. go. again... Sigh. I recently listened to one of my favorite pastors preach that it is possible to have faith and be worried at the same time; that faith doesn't cancel out doubt. He quoted something like "faith doesn't mean the absence of doubt". I remember thinking, huh? Does… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Day 1

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Focused on the wrong things.

Cycle Day 25 of TTC Cycle 7 - 10 DPO Every time I sit down to write about how I'm feeling, I panic. I immediately feel flooded with emotions and the thoughts come fast, furiously piling on top of each other, fighting for dominance. I get overwhelmed with the idea of trying to "catch" a… Continue reading Focused on the wrong things.

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TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 14: Dropped the ball?!

On cycle day (CD) 9, I was at the gym doing a barbell bench press and, upon lowering the bar to my chest, I felt a twinge of pain shoot through my left breast. Wait. Huh? I completed the repetition and lowered the bar to my chest again, just to be sure of what I… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 14: Dropped the ball?!