You would think that by now I'd be used to getting a positive pregnancy test, seeing minimal line progression on my subsequent (and ample) pregnancy tests and bleeding beginning withing 3-7 days of the first positive test. I should be used to it, right? It's been four times now. Four. I am 1 in 100… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 13 – Fourth Chemical Pregnancy
Up until that point, I had not surrendered this process to God. I had prayed every day for His grace. I had prayed for an open womb, for a healthy body, for direction, for wisdom, for strength and for courage. I had prayed...
Day one. Numero uno. Here. we. go. again... Sigh. I recently listened to one of my favorite pastors preach that it is possible to have faith and be worried at the same time; that faith doesn't cancel out doubt. He quoted something like "faith doesn't mean the absence of doubt". I remember thinking, huh? Does… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Day 1
Cycle Day 25 of TTC Cycle 7 - 10 DPO Every time I sit down to write about how I'm feeling, I panic. I immediately feel flooded with emotions and the thoughts come fast, furiously piling on top of each other, fighting for dominance. I get overwhelmed with the idea of trying to "catch" a… Continue reading Focused on the wrong things.
According to the 3 apps I use to track my menstrual cycle, ovulation and symptoms throughout my cycle, my period should arrive somewhere between the 12th and the 14th. Before we started trying to conceive (TTC), my cycle was only 25-26 days long, at most. There was the rare 27 day cycle but anything beyond… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 26 – 10 DPO: Testing Early
There's something to be said for the neurosis that follows the acquisition of entirely too much information and having access to tools with which to fruitlessly attempt to determine an outcome that is entirely up to God. Ugh. I want to "blame" the hubster for my neurosis. After all, it was him who expressed cautious… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 29 – 14 DPO: Taking all the tests!