You would think that by now I'd be used to getting a positive pregnancy test, seeing minimal line progression on my subsequent (and ample) pregnancy tests and bleeding beginning withing 3-7 days of the first positive test. I should be used to it, right? It's been four times now. Four. I am 1 in 100… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 13 – Fourth Chemical Pregnancy
Up until that point, I had not surrendered this process to God. I had prayed every day for His grace. I had prayed for an open womb, for a healthy body, for direction, for wisdom, for strength and for courage. I had prayed...
cycle day 22 - 8 dpo If there is ever a time where my talents, skills and abilities are entirely wasted and useless, it is during the week before my cycle is predicted to begin. During the final 7 days of the two week wait (TWW) to find out if we're pregnant, I tend to… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Two Week Wait Symptoms
Cycle Day 25 of TTC Cycle 7 - 10 DPO Every time I sit down to write about how I'm feeling, I panic. I immediately feel flooded with emotions and the thoughts come fast, furiously piling on top of each other, fighting for dominance. I get overwhelmed with the idea of trying to "catch" a… Continue reading Focused on the wrong things.
On cycle day (CD) 9, I was at the gym doing a barbell bench press and, upon lowering the bar to my chest, I felt a twinge of pain shoot through my left breast. Wait. Huh? I completed the repetition and lowered the bar to my chest again, just to be sure of what I… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 14: Dropped the ball?!
For several reasons, TTC is not in the forefront on my mind this month. It could be because it's our sixth cycle and I'm beginning to be distracted by other things... things I can actually control that don't consume my mind and my time as much as the details of this journey has, so far.… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 5: Hmm
According to the 3 apps I use to track my menstrual cycle, ovulation and symptoms throughout my cycle, my period should arrive somewhere between the 12th and the 14th. Before we started trying to conceive (TTC), my cycle was only 25-26 days long, at most. There was the rare 27 day cycle but anything beyond… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 26 – 10 DPO: Testing Early
Today is the first day of the dramatically drawn out, anxiety-ridden, obsessive, irrational behavior driven “two week wait” (TWW). Yay! More specifically, it is the beginning of the luteal phase of my menstrual cycle. The first day after ovulation, when my body is preparing for pregnancy by thickening my uterine lining and increasing my estrogen… Continue reading TTC Over 40 |Day 17 – 1 DPO: So, it begins… again!