TTC Cycle 8 - Day 8 Every two or three days I pray over my Bible and ask the Lord for a good Word to meditate on. I may pray for a specific Word for whatever I'm going through at that moment but, mostly, it's a general request for direction. After my prayer, I open… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 8 – Joyful Expectation
For several reasons, TTC is not in the forefront on my mind this month. It could be because it's our sixth cycle and I'm beginning to be distracted by other things... things I can actually control that don't consume my mind and my time as much as the details of this journey has, so far.… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Cycle 6 – Day 5: Hmm
Cycle Day 7. Happy and blessed Monday to you! It's one week after we lost our second pregnancy and I'm feeling okay. I'm definitely better than I was last Monday at this time. Better than I was yesterday, too. I am focused on fulfilling my purpose in my career and within my family. I am… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 7: Cycle Tracking and Other Stuff
The bleeding has slowed down to a trickle. The cramps are gone. My "fertility kit", a box of ovulation and pregnancy test strips, has arrived. The void in my womb has been replaced with the fullness of God (Ephesians 3:19). The desperate thirst for peace after this, our second pregnancy loss, is gradually, steadily being… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 4: Renewed purpose
My anxiety level is at a record high today. I cannot recall a time in recent or distant memory that I have felt as anxious, powerless, confused and disoriented as I do right at this very moment. I am breathing deeply. I'm reading scripture. I'm doing all the things I'm supposed to do to relax… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 3: Be anxious for nothing…
Ok, to be totally transparent, yesterday I wrote a long blog post detailing how we found out we were no longer pregnant, the days leading up to it, how I am feeling, how the hubster is feeling and next steps... but somehow the post disappeared and, right now, I don't have the same raw emotion… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 2: Second Chemical Pregnancy (Very early pregnancy loss)
Today I am two days "late" for when my cycle was scheduled to arrive. I'm sleepy, restless, anxious (ugh) and oh, so grateful to God for His grace, His blessings, His favor and His love. He is SO GOOD TO ME! We have been trying to conceive our baby for 4 cycles and have succeeded!… Continue reading TTC Over 40 |Day 30 – 4 weeks pregnant!
There's something to be said for the neurosis that follows the acquisition of entirely too much information and having access to tools with which to fruitlessly attempt to determine an outcome that is entirely up to God. Ugh. I want to "blame" the hubster for my neurosis. After all, it was him who expressed cautious… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 29 – 14 DPO: Taking all the tests!
I barely slept last night. In fact, as I write this right now I'm sniffling, mildly cramping and struggling to stay awake. One of my first clues that I might be pregnant this cycle was the exhaustion I've been feeling for the last couple of days. However, last night was just a rough night and… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 27 – 12 DPO: New Beginnings
I subscribe to several YouTube TTC channels and, every month, eagerly awaiting the "two week wait"(TWW) videos from the ladies who have yet to conceive. I open up my YouTube app at night, right before prayer, and proceed to live vicariously through "finding out I'm pregnant" and "0-4 weeks pregnancy update" videos that pop up… Continue reading TTC Over 40 | Day 26 – 11 DPO: Yay! Big Fat Positive!